I would trust you too.
For the longest time I believed that I was a good person: honest, kind, trust worthy, the whole shebang. This was true until I cheated. I had no intention of doing so, but once upon a time I did. Shit happens, and no matter how rational you are, when emotions come into play there is no room for rationality.
So, don't you see? I, a "good" person, am not necessarily always good. So how can I trust that You, a "good" person, won't be just as bad as I have been? Everyone is flawed. Everyone sins. Everyone fucks up. I have no reason to trust you or anyone. Whether it be intentional or not, pain will stab me in the heart, and there is nothing I can do about it.
P.s. This all started because my boyfriend is going to a good bye party for his Ex Girlfriend, whom he used to be In Love with. That scares me a bit, but please share what you think about this situation.
Karen,
ReplyDeleteI empathize with you much closer than you might be able to imagine. I also know your past very well, so I'm pretty sure I know what it is your referencing.
I'n the end, you can't really trust anyone, as your logic is flawless. We judge others based on our own psyche, and we, ourselves, never meet our own expectations. However, may I advice you my friend that if you start to question your partner, you will incite reason for them to act the very same way you want them not to. In the end the best thing to do is trust in them blindly until you have evidence to suggest of their infidelity. Because otherwise you'd simply be increasing the probability of them cheating by creating defects in yourself.
Hope this helps and attenuates your grievance, its the least I can hope to do for you,
Miguel A. Hernandez Jr.
Thank you so much for your advice. All though it wasn't until now that I saw this comment, it really means a lot.
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